This song also speaks to me about my mom. Who recently underwent kidney transplant surgery after being on a donor list for 8ish years (no one can really remember if it was 8 or 10). She is a diabetic, she has some pulmonary hypertension, she has a little bit of congestive heart failure. She wasn't the greatest at taking care of her body and was also handed a few cards that made it worse. But, above all of that, she has a heart of gold. She would never wish bad upon a person, and she wants only for good to be in the lives of her loved ones. She isn't perfect, and she doesn't always say the most perfect things (especially to her most perfect daughter, me!), but she is truly an example of goodness. But back to my point, even though she had put herself in the situation of having low functioning kidneys, she has received a truly miraculous gift. A second chance. The song doesn't say if you deserve saving or not, but that it's there. And that it's okay to embrace all of who you are, good, bad, or otherwise.
So back to Crossfit. I have been good about going, and really missed it when I couldn't go as often while Mom was in the hospital for surgery and whatnot. But I went the night before Thanksgiving, and was the only person there! It was a partner workout ("Jack" 20:00 AMRAP 10 push presses/10 kettle bell swings/10 box jumps). I didn't go that fast, but I kept a good pace. I was off my game, though. As evidenced by the fact that I hit my chin with the bar, nearly dropped a 35 lb kettle bell behind my head, and nearly fell forward on a box jump. I hadn't been eating that great because I was out of my routine, and while that is the weakest excuse, I used it to justify drinking diet soda and eating a pizza in a week, all by myself. I also forgot my hair thing that night, and my hair (almost down to my butt), kept getting caught in my armpits. :)
And then, last night, I went back and we did "Cindy with a Jerk." I laugh everytime I see that! "Cindy" is a 20:00 AMRAP of 5 pull ups/10 push ups/15 squats, and they also added a clean and jerk. I met my goal of number of rounds, and it felt great to be "back." Oh, and we were supposed to end with a 2 mi cool down, and we typically run behind the shopping center where our box is. It was dark, and it started to rain. Brandon bestowed pity on us, and less than halfway through, he picked us up in his car. :) He also cleaned up all of our supplies. What a guy.
Tonight, I went to Skinnyfit, and Matt blasted "Demons" about halfway through the workout, which was a real doozy! (400m run, "Karen"-150 wall balls, "Annie"-50/40/30/20/10 sit ups/double unders (or scaled double the amount of single jump ropes), 400m run). And the song carried me through the first set of sit ups. I was the last to finish with a 35:00 cap. And Matt, being the supportive coach and generous person that he is, ran with me the last 400m. You can't pay for quality coaching like that! And not to mention, Matt had us play leap frog and do cartwheels in the warm up. He is like a puppet master. But in a nice, sadistic, way. :)
That is two nights in a row, that people have been generous enough to clean up my things for me. I feel as if I benefit so much from the people who go here and the coaches, that I feel compelled to put something back into this establishment. That's what drives me to be a success story and to spread the support and encouragement to others who walk through our doors. I can't say it enough. Loving crossfit. Loving myself.
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